Graduated High School. Kissed someone. Smoked cigarettes. Got so drunk you passed out. Rode every ride at an amusement park. Collected something really stupid Gone to a rock concert. Helped someone. Gone fishing. Spun turn tables. Watched four movies in one night. Gone long periods of time with out sleep. Lied to someone. Been dumped. Snorted cocaine. Failed a class. Smoked weed. Dealt drugs. Taken a college level course. Been in a car accident. Been in a tornado. Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid). Watched someone die. Been to a funeral. Burned yourself. (accidentally) Ran a marathon. Your parents got divorced. Cried yourself to sleep. Spent over $200 in one day. Flown on a plane. Cheated on someone. Been cheated on. Written a 10 page letter. Gone skiing. Been sailing. Cut yourself. Had a best friend. Lost someone you loved. Shoplifted something. Been to jail. Had detention. Skipped school. Got in trouble for something you didn’t do. Stolen books from the library. Gone to a different country. Dropped out of school. Been in a mental hospital. Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. Had an online diary. Fired a gun. Gambled in a casino. Had a yard sale. And a lemonade stand. Actually made money at the lemonade stand. Been in a school play. Been fired from a job. Taken a lie detector test. Swam with dolphins.(almost,but chickened out) Gone to sea world. Attempted suicide. Voted for American/Australian Idol. Written poetry. Read more than 20 books a year. Gone to Europe. Loved someone you couldn’t have. Wondered about your sexuality. Used a coloring book over age 12. Had surgery. Had stitches. Taken a taxi. Seen the Washington Monument. Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once. Overdosed. Had a drug or alcohol problem. Been in a fist fight. Suffered any form of abuse. Had a hamster. Petted a wild animal. Used a credit card. Gone surfing in California. Did “spirit day” at school. Dyed your hair. Got a tattoo. Had something pierced. Got straight A’s. Been on the Honor Roll. Your parents sent you to a shrink. Been handcuffed. Known someone with HIV or AIDS. Taken pictures with a webcam. Started a fire. Had a party while your parents weren’t home. Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.
You can tell a person a million times you love them, you care for them and want nothing more for them to be happy.
Even if they are family and they have heard it there whole lives every single day that you love them.
All it takes is one sentence one word.
And instantly they believe who ever told them even if the person is the one who promised to love them forever unconditionally. They believe that they are worth nothing to that person and that they don’t love them.
I don’t understand it.
People have lost faith in all the important words that actually mean something.
“I love you” is supposed to be a strong serious word with a lot attached to it.
But people believe it when you tell them “I don’t love you” and “I don’t care”
It makes me sad.
And I can’t say that I haven’t believed someone when they said something like that to me. Because I have, from the most important person in my life who I know will love me forever and would die for me. But still they say the words and a whole life time of important words melt away.
The bricks get laid, and they get torn up, and laid again, but the bricks always get torn up again. Your friends won’t wait, so don’t believe that shit, when they say they’ll wait. Trust me; your friends will not wait for you. Then you’ll be stoned in some park, just nodding your head and pinching your arms, when a girl walks along. She’s humming your song, with your t-shirt on. That’s when you’re done, Oh, that’s when you’re done… There’s a cotton crush down in the southern states. But back up here, man, we’ve got so much thread and space to waste, waste, waste. There’s a microphone picking every word up and it shuts itself off when it’s sure that’s its heard enough….. The quiet can scrape all the calm from your bones, but maybe it should. Maybe we need to be hollowed to get up and grow, and stop fucking around, to kick off our braces and start straightening out. Let’s sift through the static to find a simpler sound Let’s sift through the static to find a simpler sound… simpler sound than the shit that’s clouding our heads now