“I hurt myself today to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain the only thing that’s real. The needle tears a hole. The old familiar sting. Try to kill it all away, but I remember everything. What have I become? My sweetest friend, everyone I know goes away in the end. And you could have it all, my empire of dirt. I will let you down. I will make you hurt.”— Johnny Cash. (via breakmeneatly)
Houses… are alive. This is something we know. News from our nerve endings. If we’re quiet, if we listen, we can hear houses breath. Sometimes, in the depth of the night, you can even hear them groan. It’s as if they were having bad dreams. A good house cradles and comforts, a basd one fills us with instinctive unease. Bad houses hate our warmth and our human-ness. That blind hate of our humanity is what we mean when we use the word ‘haunted’.
ugh our computer is broken at the moment, so annoying. So I’m left with using Mitch’s laptop/laptops when i can and my Ipod but it shall have to do until we can afford to get it fixed. We are so povo at the moment its really shit haha.
I’m supposed to do homework for my therapist but i cant remember the two core beliefs I’m supposed to work on. frustration!
other than that I’m on again off again sick and the in between parts are not pleasant either, so today was just watching movies and sleeping on the couch. I hope tomorrows a better day and Monday is the start of a better week and my dad agrees to help me out with getting new lenses for my glasses as my eye sight has gotten a whole lot worse and i would love to be able to see better as soon as possible.
any way boring, i wont take of offense to any one who skips over this its not interesting in the slightest but its good to get some stuff out of my head.
feel free to ask me some questions, that would be interesting/nice.
“He deserves death.”
“Deserves it! I daresay he does. Many that live deserve death. And some that die deserve life. Can you give it to them? Then do not be too eager to deal out death in judgement. For even the very wise cannot see all ends. I have not much hope that Gollum can be cured before he dies, but there is a chance of it. And he is bound up with the fate of the Ring. My heart tells me that he has some part to play yet, or good or Ill, before the end; and when that comes, the pity of Bilbo may rule the fate of many - yours not least.”—Frodo and Gandalf discussing the fate of the betrayer Gollum (Lord of the Rings)