I’m so happy I don’t have to go to hospital.
I’m going to be on antibiotics for ages but have grrrreat hardcore pain killers!
These antibiotics are going to make my pill stop working though! Grrrrr!
Oh well I’m just so excited to get over this! I’m going to have a steaming hot shower, go see my lovely and hopefully watch some more true blood!
how could anyone possibly help? nothing anyone can say can make it not have happened in the first place and that's all i want. the only person i've told was my guy friend and he's the type to just laugh things off so he just made a joke about it and we started talking to someone else. the thing was it was my fault because i was drunk and flirtatious. but i felt raped the next day. i felt rotten. like she's part of me now.
It is in NO way your fault. There are somethings that we can not change no matter how much we wish it and it hurts and it makes you angry but that doesn’t change it either. There are so many things I wish I could change but I can’t and I do still wish I could but I know I cant so I’m trying to move forward because very unfortunately that’s all you can do.
There are people out there who can help you move forward and help you deal with those feelings of self blame. I also know what it’s like to blame yourself and its sooo hard to get out of that mind set because you think you see all these reasons and all these little mistakes that make you the person in the wrong but believe me when I say to you, you are not to blame you are the victim.
I’m also sorry about your friend responding that way, it’s hard for people to deal with stuff like that sometimes and so they just blow it off like it’s nothing because it is in fact not nothing but something so big they cant deal with it. maybe you should consider thinking about telling a family member you can trust or if you don’t feel comfortable telling them seeking out a counselor. There is lots of help out there I promise. You deserve to feel happy.
i was raped once by a crackhead woman whilst really wasted and felt rotten for days and if i think about it hard i fall apart and it makes me feel unlovable and dirty.
That’s awful, have you told someone? you really should if you haven’t and get some help to deal with it because you’re not alone and you certainly are not unlovable or dirty. I know there are lots of people out there who are willing to help. I’m sorry you had to experience that.
In Denmark for the weekend, hoping to just relax and get better. The drive down was beautiful with the sunset creating gorgeous colour and magical shadows. The canola fields are in full force so the hills looked a gorgeous and powerful yellow.